Have I Told You Lately...

For the past week or so, I've been following a blog called Laissezfaire Design. The woman who contributes to the blog is absolutely fascinating. Everything on that blog is just making me want to grow up and get my own home even faster. I love the interior design and other accents to the home that she goes on about and the pictures are exquisite.

Also... last night was the final straw. Eli and I broke up. I'm not sure what to take about it. I don't know if we'll stay this way or not. It was hard being in our art classes together today. We barely even spoke the entire time.
Eli had told me that this weekend, he would be going with his family to Savannah to look for some beach places to go during the summer. I found this to sound weird, but understood. Last night, I found out the truth about what he would be doing this weekend. He and his family would be going to Savannah for him to look at a college that he really wants to go to. He wants to take up illustration design. Well, when I asked him why he didn't tell me, he simply said that he didn't want to hurt my feelings. This made me infuriated. The one time that he actually CONSIDERED my feelings before lying, it wouldn't have mattered. I would've been ecstatic for him. Pursuing his dream is nothing to feel hurt or get angry about. Out of all the times that he lied about cheating on me and looking at pornography he didn't consider my feelings. When it doesn't matter he does.
Finding out that he lied to me about this made me think and wonder what kind of girlfriend I must be for him to think that I would get angry or sad to find out that he wanted to go and visit a college. I must seriously be the most bothersome and hurtful girlfriend on the planet. I broke up with him and told him that now he can find a girl that will actually not fuss at him for grades, will do what he wants to do, and won't complain about stuff all the time because that seems to be all that I do.