So the secret's out. Clay Aiken is gay. My idol... my hero... my role model... my reason for living. The article says that he knew it when he was in college. I'm disappointed that he would lie to his faithful fans. On the other hand, he might not have been ready to let it out. I just don't understand how such an issue could be so hurtful.
I guess that the real reason I'm upset is because, since he released his first album, I've been defending him against everyone I knew. It's hard to accept that someone that you trusted and idolized for the majority of your youth, wasn't who you thought he was. I'm offended in a matter or speaking, yet I sympathize with him. I have been ridiculed since the eighth grade, and still am today. It's just not fair sometimes.
I'm at one of those points in my life where I can only wonder why something like this would happen to me. I try so hard to be kind and generous to people. I help them with their problems. I give advice and care about it. I just don't know why me of all people would have this happen. It's crazy! I'm left alone in this world. Knowing that he lied to me, I have no more hope of that honesty I long for. Those of you who know me personally know how big a part Clay played in my life.
I still like Clay. I will not abandon him for his choice because I would expect the same if I were to choose such a thing. I just wish he would have told us this sooner. It hurt so many people to the bone, and I just hope that he thinks that he has done the right thing.
KNZ
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Been Too Long
So it's been way too long since I last posted. I haven't really been up to alot lately. Keith and I have been having a few fights in the last week or so.
Eli and I have been happier than ever I must say. Everything has just been going right and I have to say that I've never been so in love. He and I are watching movies together and just being able to hang out without having something stupid to fight about. We can just go to Cheers and eat a sandwich and get a drink and play pool. It's great! This weekend we are going camping with his Mom and Stepdad. I'm ecstatic!
I've been going to Fuddruckers alot the past month. I am now a 'regular'. I walked in one day and Jeffrey was at the cash register and I ordered 2 grilled cheese with nothing else. He said "No fries?" and I said "No." and he was shocked. Then I put it under my name "Kenzi" and then I got my order. After a few days, I came back with Eli and he saw me and just shouted what he knew I was going to order. But he didn't remember my name that time. Then the next time, a few days later, he did the same thing but remembered my name. Now when I go in there, he knows me and that makes me happy to be a 'regular' at Fuddruckers.
The house has been pretty quiet since I pretty much here by myself most days. It kinda sucks because I hate being by myself. I'm easily scared.
Well, I'm off to school.
Eli and I have been happier than ever I must say. Everything has just been going right and I have to say that I've never been so in love. He and I are watching movies together and just being able to hang out without having something stupid to fight about. We can just go to Cheers and eat a sandwich and get a drink and play pool. It's great! This weekend we are going camping with his Mom and Stepdad. I'm ecstatic!
I've been going to Fuddruckers alot the past month. I am now a 'regular'. I walked in one day and Jeffrey was at the cash register and I ordered 2 grilled cheese with nothing else. He said "No fries?" and I said "No." and he was shocked. Then I put it under my name "Kenzi" and then I got my order. After a few days, I came back with Eli and he saw me and just shouted what he knew I was going to order. But he didn't remember my name that time. Then the next time, a few days later, he did the same thing but remembered my name. Now when I go in there, he knows me and that makes me happy to be a 'regular' at Fuddruckers.
The house has been pretty quiet since I pretty much here by myself most days. It kinda sucks because I hate being by myself. I'm easily scared.
Well, I'm off to school.
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
'Lottery' by Patricia Wood
'Lottery' by Patricia Wood:
This book was a heartfelt, diary-like book about a young, slow(not retarded) man named Perry. He was disowned by his mother and 2 brothers and lived with his Gram his entire life. He works at a Marina Boat Shop in Washington State. His best friend is named Keith, and he works with him. Early on in the story it is shown that he and his Gram have a schedule type week. They go to BINGO one day, have spaghetti dinner one night, and on Fridays, they get a lottery ticket and the crossword from the paper. Eventually, Gram dies and he is sad. She left him the house and everything else. The brothers and his mother come in and take everything of value including the house. His boss Gary allows him to live above the Marina and so forth. The next Friday, he buys a lottery ticket and wins $12 million. Suddenly, he has a mother and 2 brothers again, but Keith sees through their disguises and tries his best to save Perry from all of their tricks. The story goes along to show that money isn't everything and you really have to read the rest of the story. It's addicting and you would want to read it all in one sitting.
Never have I ever read a book more addicting than 'Lottery'. It's a book that's quite hard to come by and my mom had to order it offline in order to get her hands on it. If anyone wants to borrow it, just let me know and I'll get it to you as soon as I can. Just understand that you'll already be on a list!
KNZ
This book was a heartfelt, diary-like book about a young, slow(not retarded) man named Perry. He was disowned by his mother and 2 brothers and lived with his Gram his entire life. He works at a Marina Boat Shop in Washington State. His best friend is named Keith, and he works with him. Early on in the story it is shown that he and his Gram have a schedule type week. They go to BINGO one day, have spaghetti dinner one night, and on Fridays, they get a lottery ticket and the crossword from the paper. Eventually, Gram dies and he is sad. She left him the house and everything else. The brothers and his mother come in and take everything of value including the house. His boss Gary allows him to live above the Marina and so forth. The next Friday, he buys a lottery ticket and wins $12 million. Suddenly, he has a mother and 2 brothers again, but Keith sees through their disguises and tries his best to save Perry from all of their tricks. The story goes along to show that money isn't everything and you really have to read the rest of the story. It's addicting and you would want to read it all in one sitting.
Never have I ever read a book more addicting than 'Lottery'. It's a book that's quite hard to come by and my mom had to order it offline in order to get her hands on it. If anyone wants to borrow it, just let me know and I'll get it to you as soon as I can. Just understand that you'll already be on a list!
KNZ
Monday, September 1, 2008
Finally 18!
It all started late Thursday night. My best friend Keith picked me up from my house and we had decided to go to 221 downtown. 221 is a club and we had an absolute blast. We got in line at exactly midnight, so I was officially 18 once I walked in the door. We danced the entire time and just having a grand ole time. He might have been the worst dancer there, but I made him better. I just had to stand there and it made him better. He knew that he wasn't great and knew that I knew it. We got back home around 2am.
I slept in late on Friday because I didn't have class and everyone else in my family was at school or work. I had gotten a CD player for my car and was going to go and have Eli install it, but I had gone to the gas station up the street to get some gas before going to Eli's work, he works at a full service gas station/garage, to have my CD player installed. I got out of my car, shut the door, and then turned around to see my keys still in the ignition. I called my Mom, who was at work, and she said, 'Walk back home and get the spare.' I walked home, got the spare, walked back, and then FINALLY got my car back open. I went back inside and then bought my first ever lottery ticket. When I got back in the car, I scratched them, but they were both losers. I drove all the way to the station and then we began to install the CD player. He had to keep helping at work though, so it took a lot longer than we had expected. When we finally finished around 2:15, we went to have lunch a Cici's Pizza together, listening to my new CD player of course! After that, I got back home for a little while and then I got a call from McLovin and Christopher. They said that they were on their way to my house to pick me up and take me to a surprise dinner. They didn't tell me where or anything, just that Keith had planned it as a surprise. I quickly changed into a dress and got out the door. We drove to the destination of Outback. I walked in the door to find a table for 8 with a huge balloon and a gorgeous vase of flowers. I hugged everyone there. This included Keith, Michael, McLovin, Christopher, and James. I sat next to Keith only to have to stand again to welcome David and his girlfriend Tamyra. It was so wonderful to have a great dinner with some of my great friends. We all ordered and then, while we were waiting, Keith and Michael sang a harmonous 'Happy Birthday' that I enjoyed very much. They were both so wonderful and we all gave them a round of applaudse. After we ate our dinner, the Outback crew brought me some ice-cream and sang me another 'Happy Birthday' and then I ate my ice-cream. After we all were done, McLovin and Christopher took me back to my house and I changed quickly into a tanktop and jeans. We went to the football game at Eastside. It was Riverside vs. Eastside. Eastside lost to Riverside 14 to 39. The game was pretty cool. I got to see some of my old EHS friends and they were so glad to see me. I mostly had to hang around with Keith and his friends though. Eli and I hung out too. He came to the game with me and we had a pretty good time.
The next day, again I slept fairly late. I finally openned my presents and I got 2 new shirts, a steering wheel cover, a feet mat for my car, some little figurines that I collect, and a new book. It was all wonderful. That day, I went and took Cassidy and Standish to Blockbusters to let them get some games they wanted. Then, I came back home and hung around there. David came over around 4 to do his scrapbook page for my birthday. He was here for a while doing his page. When he was finished, Eli came and picked me up and we went and rented 2 movies for us to watch. We watched 'Shutter' and 'Nim's Island'. We just laid on his couch in the living room and watched both back-to-back. They were both pretty good. I enjoyed them both.
Sunday, I woke up and didn't really do much. Eli and I went to church for the Latin Mass at 11. It was pretty good. Then we went to Fuddruckers for lunch. After that, he took me back home and then we went to do his errands at Pep Boys and Radioshack. We didn't really find what he needed and so we went back to my house and hung out for a while. Kasandra brought me by my birthday present and it was a zebra print shirt. I loved it alot. Eli and I went back to his house afterwards and we watched 'Family Guy' and 'American Dad'. When we got back to my house we watched the end of 'Forrest Gump'.
Monday was a good day too. We went to Hollywild around 1. We did the safari ride first. When we got off of the safari ride, we found out that our batteries in the camera were dead. So we left the park, drove to the nearest shop, bought some batteries, drove back, and finished with the rest of the park. It was alot of fun with everything. We got to pet little baby goats and the longhorn and the zebras. Everything there was so much fun to watch and gawk at. We took a bunch of other pictures. When we were done there, we went to Applebee's for dinner. I got a virgin pomegranate margarita and it was great! He took me home and then picked me back up to go to his Dad's house for 'Jeopardy!'.
That was my wonderful birthday weekend!
KNZ
I slept in late on Friday because I didn't have class and everyone else in my family was at school or work. I had gotten a CD player for my car and was going to go and have Eli install it, but I had gone to the gas station up the street to get some gas before going to Eli's work, he works at a full service gas station/garage, to have my CD player installed. I got out of my car, shut the door, and then turned around to see my keys still in the ignition. I called my Mom, who was at work, and she said, 'Walk back home and get the spare.' I walked home, got the spare, walked back, and then FINALLY got my car back open. I went back inside and then bought my first ever lottery ticket. When I got back in the car, I scratched them, but they were both losers. I drove all the way to the station and then we began to install the CD player. He had to keep helping at work though, so it took a lot longer than we had expected. When we finally finished around 2:15, we went to have lunch a Cici's Pizza together, listening to my new CD player of course! After that, I got back home for a little while and then I got a call from McLovin and Christopher. They said that they were on their way to my house to pick me up and take me to a surprise dinner. They didn't tell me where or anything, just that Keith had planned it as a surprise. I quickly changed into a dress and got out the door. We drove to the destination of Outback. I walked in the door to find a table for 8 with a huge balloon and a gorgeous vase of flowers. I hugged everyone there. This included Keith, Michael, McLovin, Christopher, and James. I sat next to Keith only to have to stand again to welcome David and his girlfriend Tamyra. It was so wonderful to have a great dinner with some of my great friends. We all ordered and then, while we were waiting, Keith and Michael sang a harmonous 'Happy Birthday' that I enjoyed very much. They were both so wonderful and we all gave them a round of applaudse. After we ate our dinner, the Outback crew brought me some ice-cream and sang me another 'Happy Birthday' and then I ate my ice-cream. After we all were done, McLovin and Christopher took me back to my house and I changed quickly into a tanktop and jeans. We went to the football game at Eastside. It was Riverside vs. Eastside. Eastside lost to Riverside 14 to 39. The game was pretty cool. I got to see some of my old EHS friends and they were so glad to see me. I mostly had to hang around with Keith and his friends though. Eli and I hung out too. He came to the game with me and we had a pretty good time.
The next day, again I slept fairly late. I finally openned my presents and I got 2 new shirts, a steering wheel cover, a feet mat for my car, some little figurines that I collect, and a new book. It was all wonderful. That day, I went and took Cassidy and Standish to Blockbusters to let them get some games they wanted. Then, I came back home and hung around there. David came over around 4 to do his scrapbook page for my birthday. He was here for a while doing his page. When he was finished, Eli came and picked me up and we went and rented 2 movies for us to watch. We watched 'Shutter' and 'Nim's Island'. We just laid on his couch in the living room and watched both back-to-back. They were both pretty good. I enjoyed them both.
Sunday, I woke up and didn't really do much. Eli and I went to church for the Latin Mass at 11. It was pretty good. Then we went to Fuddruckers for lunch. After that, he took me back home and then we went to do his errands at Pep Boys and Radioshack. We didn't really find what he needed and so we went back to my house and hung out for a while. Kasandra brought me by my birthday present and it was a zebra print shirt. I loved it alot. Eli and I went back to his house afterwards and we watched 'Family Guy' and 'American Dad'. When we got back to my house we watched the end of 'Forrest Gump'.
Monday was a good day too. We went to Hollywild around 1. We did the safari ride first. When we got off of the safari ride, we found out that our batteries in the camera were dead. So we left the park, drove to the nearest shop, bought some batteries, drove back, and finished with the rest of the park. It was alot of fun with everything. We got to pet little baby goats and the longhorn and the zebras. Everything there was so much fun to watch and gawk at. We took a bunch of other pictures. When we were done there, we went to Applebee's for dinner. I got a virgin pomegranate margarita and it was great! He took me home and then picked me back up to go to his Dad's house for 'Jeopardy!'.
That was my wonderful birthday weekend!
KNZ
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